Rose Theory of a Health Journey

I have had a hard time finding a way to explain why I am even on a search for better health.  I needed to be able to explain it to myself.  I was not as concerned about what others thought.  It never really occurred to me to try to explain it outside my own ego.

When fighting Lyme and company, there has always seemed to be something just not right.  We are missing a puzzle piece somewhere.  Various infections, hormones, nutrition….it always seems much more difficult and complicated than it should be.

I believe that I have found a way to explain it to myself.  The theory will not fix anything but thought I should share it in case anyone else could use it.

The Rose Theory

I first moved into my house over 10 years ago.  As a new home owner I was excited to fix up things and put to use all of those hours spent watching home improvement shows.  One thing that I really wanted was a beautiful rose bush.  It was a peace rose.  I tended to it as Google said I should.  I watered it often but careful not to over water it.  I sought advice on what fertilizer to use and when to apply it.  I made sure it received all the nutrients it needed.  I trimmed it as directed.  I was very attentive to its every need.  If I was doing everything just right, there were a few beautiful blooms as a reward.

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Spread Positive Jam On Toast

MyIntent Project

A friend gave a gift from a company that has a mission to share meaning and positive energy.  It is a pretty cool idea.  You think of one or two words that are meaningful to you.  The word can be a goal or an intention, or just something meaningful.  They press the word into a metal circle and you choose if it is on a bracelet or necklace.  Example words are love, grateful, compassion, purpose, and surrender.  The company is running behind due to a record number of orders and sent an email apologizing. The email included a link to free music.

What is your word?

In the spirit of sharing positive energy, here are some YouTube versions of songs on the album. 

SUP Saturday Rebellion

Lil' Red and FriendsPatience, recovery, and rehab…

I teach it. I preach it. I skipped it.

Lil’ Red’s whispers grew in my ear.  

Echoing, bellowing, 

“Let’s go to the river,” He shouted.

I ventured out for a short stand up paddle boarding session today.  Tie down straps did not work, the launch fees increased from 3 to 10 dollars.  The crowd started by 9AM when the grounds used to be ghostly until closer to 10:30.

My legs were shaky and my balance faulty.  There were no falls or splashes.  It was clear that I had skimped on my preparation.  My flexibility was surprisingly constrained when transitioning from kneeling to standing.  The muscles in both feet have been spoiled.  A few minutes later, I was back on shore.

It was nice to be back out on the water!

With new exercises in mind, I put Lil’ Red away for another day.

 

The 10 Stages of Lyme

Instead of going through the stages of grief I read about in school, it seems many diagnosed with Lyme disease traverse a different path.

Each path is unique but may look a little like:

  1. I know something is wrong, why haven’t the 5-30 doctors I have seen been able to find something.
  2. I might have what? Never heard much about that.
  3. Research: Cure Unknown, Under Our Skin, Dr. Google, Facebook, Beginner’s Guide to Lyme Disease, Why Can’t I Get Better?
  4. Antibiotics, maybe IVs
  5. 20 different supplements
  6. Diet-no sugar, no gluten, no dairy, non-GMO, organic, unless I cheat.
  7. Outrage, petitions, t-shirts, protests
  8. Homeopathic, ayurvedic, herbs, oils
  9. Biomat, sauna, Epsom baths, EMF tents, coffee????
  10. Sigh, maybe no more Dr. Google

What would you add?

Open the Curtains and Look at the Fog

Time for some Lyme updating….

After sticking my head in the sand, I had to make my way back to reality.

December brought with it TMJ pain.  I will get into to TMD issues and treatment after I try out a new mouth splint that I am getting this week.  The reason I mention it now, is that I needed to go on a soft food diet for a few weeks.  It is REALLY hard to not eat any sugar and carbs when on a soft food diet.  Then came the holidays.

The sugar fest led to a Candida party in my brain.

Clearly the Diflucan and the months of trying to behave after the antibiotics did NOT clear the issue.  I picked up a couple of boxes of CandiGone.

I followed the directions on the box with one extra day at the half dose.  On day 2 my cervical lymph nodes were a little more swollen than usual.  On day 3, cervical and axillary lymph nodes were swollen and holy night sweat!!!

I never experienced such a distinct and clear die off from any of my Lyme/Bartonella treatments.

I woke almost giddy in the knowledge that it was working….then I washed my pillow. 

Over the next couple of weeks, I felt as if a curtain had been lifted but there was still a fog.

Back to the LLMD with new blood work.  He started me on the Byron White formula for Lyme disease.  I started at a low level and am working up to the desired dose.  I may need another round of CandiGone (or something), but, for now, Lyme will be the focus.

He approved a supplement that I had just started on my own (that we had discussed but not added previously).  Ashwaghanda has been amazing for my energy!!

Ashwaghanda is an adaptogen for adrenal support.  It is supposed to give you energy in the morning and calm you at night.  I have to take it first thing in the morning, or I will have severe issues sleeping.  Apparently, I am not adaptogenic.

Blood test FYI/TMI

CD57:  27 (was 22 in 2013)

D3:  22  (I had been stuck at 37 so I changed to another brand….wrong move)

Western Blot: only + was IgG 41 through Quest (2013: tested all negative Labcorp, positive for 31, 34, 41 through IGenex)

Cholesterol 144

A1C: 5.3%

Coming Attractions: Sleep studies and TMD